Saturday, April 05, 2008 ' 6:53 PM
Till now, i havent get over to his death... the loss of a friend... Everything seems so unreal to me... till then, when we meet, i hope i will be smiling at u...
ZX was really nice to accompany me thru the funeral... he was there and i appreciate that alot... THANKS ALOT!!!
counting the fact that QY is in bangkok for a family trip,but he sends his care and concern thru the masses of sms he send since the day he left spore.. he was upset that he cant be there for me.. nvm pal i understand... ^^ juz rem to buy my presents back... if nt u will be so dead... ^^
And today zhixue send me an email... a poem on a lost friend and also an email abt friends that is alive... thanks buddy... while reading the email, i cried... we went thru alot... and he is gone.,.. bt no matter what i knw he will be blessed and deeply missed....
this is how the poem go
The Forever Friend
by Artur Hawkwing
On my own, but mostly the savannah,
Where the tumbleweeds fade away and die,
Before the glassy sun burns a summer of crystals,
The glistering waters of the high seas
Of which was so far a place as of where vultures roam.
I looked around but you weren't anywhere...
You used to say that you would never die,
But I took the wrong meaning into my heart.
Now the sea is wild with despair,Deep blue like a prairie of flowers blue,
Where all children of God rest in eternal peace.
I saw you at the end,You and I, brother and sister of nature,
Brother and sister of heaven and earth,
Your usually calm and heavenly eyes full of tears,
Bitterly falling one after one into a river,
Then the river of life turned red in blood.
My eyes watched in horror.
Slowly and deadly your heart became poisoned,
You disappeared without saying good-bye,
Not a word came out of your mouth.
You became like desolation in its grave.
When once the skies were a realm of stars
And the sun shone brightly in summer skies,
You were there to share the calmness;
But now I stand here in midst of the tall grass
And only the savannah remains.
isnt that meaningniful... it really make me cry alot!!!
and this one... i burst out crying...
By Your Side
by Ruwaida Van Doorsen
It hurts to know you’re hurting
Because you’re so special in my heart
The pain that you are feelingI
s tearing me apart
But know that love has a way
Of easing all that’s wrong
Together we can make it
If we hold on and just be strong
Know that you’re not alone
In all your adversity
For by your side through and through
Is where I’ll always be
THANKS BUDDY... I <3 u!!!
AND I WILL CONT TO HEED UR ADVICE AND BOTHER U AS OFTEN AS I CAN...
this week health went frm bad to worst....
counting the fact that the num of times i fainted on streets and home is COUNTLESS...
once one of my fren said:
sorry joey we cant do anything bt to see u suffer...
i cried... maybe she means well to me.. bt it hurts alot...
suffer is all i am bearing it myself... all by myself...
working hard to keep myself survive... waking up either in the hospital or at hm
nt knowing where will i be in the nxt moment, how pathetic...
is really sad huh...
I don't blame anyone, nt even GOD...
Cause there's no one to blame..
pple beside me say, work hard, cont to work hard, u will make it eventually...
i knw myself well... is never gg to be cure... NV... the only way is to have the heart changed...
How slim is the chance... how long will i have to wait... no1 knws... nt even the doctor,
he himself cant give me an ans of when will have the chance..
all now i wan frm GOD is TIME... will he grants my wish...
Just for once... I AM ONLY ASKING FOR TIME... that is all i want...