Friday, November 28, 2008 ' 9:07 AM
I HAVE NEVER FELT SO RELIEVED IN MY ENTIRE LIFE.
My trip to Bangkok is not cancel but postpone to nxt yr FEB, Since the concert is still going on But is only held nxt yr.. ^^
FOR THE 1st TIME, I LOVE SME and THE THAI ORGANISERS TO make such a SMART DECISION.. ^^
Thanks my Dearly Wenting who gave me a call at the very 1st hand when she got hold of the news ^^ <333
Now i dun have to worry that my life is in danger and i cant get a flight hm frm BKK...
Kyu wait for me, i will see u in yr 2009 ^^ and is ur bday during that mth, <333333...
TILL THEN, KYU REMEMBER TO WAIT FOR ME...
Side track, momo told me that KAT-TUN is debuting in korea, RIGHT, in 2weeks time, GREAT...
somehow i feel that AKAME, will be the freaking hot popular guys there, OH MAN, MY TURTLE... >.<
now i have ample time to pack my luggage ready to go back hk, and also packing up to see bros in states soon, with mummy ^^
for the 1st time, my mum was like didnt say anything abt my thai trip till i called her and informed her that i am cancelled my trip to thai. i knw she will be worried ^^ and now i am relieved, i knw she does too ^^
now i can eat well and slp well ^^
Colourful rainbow <3
Thursday, November 27, 2008 ' 12:08 AM
ok my day has never been that bad before, NEVER.
now with the situation in thai and so on, i really hope things are getting better by tmr..
i prayyyyyyyy....
to mel,
is ok, at least u told me the truth if nt it will make me feel happier that he could rem my name..
well is alrite and over already.
dun brood over it ^^ i am fine after some time.
HUGS TO UUUUUUUUU!!!! =D
Colourful rainbow <3
Tuesday, November 25, 2008 ' 12:01 AM
4more days to see baby,
yet, i am not finished with anything,...
1]letter half done...
2]presents, i havent had time to find a nice paper bag for the presents for him.
3]pack my luggage
4]change currency...
5]4days to jet off frm spore. GREAT... I AM SO DEAD NOW...
the only thing i am settle with is my airport transfer, wenting's fren is picking us up to the hotel..
thanks wenting <333....
side track,
my wknd was dedicated to eg, freaking dying soon, DEAD TIRED... HELL TIRED...
but thanks, the memories just flood back my brains...
ZSW thanks alot... i appreciate that alot ^^
tired, i am gg to bed and slp.. i super deprived of slp right now. =.=
Colourful rainbow <3
Monday, November 17, 2008 ' 11:33 PM
10more days to go,
and i havent finish doing ANYTHING!!!
i havent finish doing
1]kyu present,
2]kyu letter [ which has to be translated to korean, to the last extort i will have to write in chinese and let hangeng do the translations for him, or english and let Henry to the translation for him... >.<]
3] i havent pack my luggage back to hk,and i need to start to pack my luggage to states too!!!
4]havent had my currency changed...
omggggggggggggggg
i am speeding against time... >.<
Colourful rainbow <3
Wednesday, November 12, 2008 ' 10:59 PM
just this morning, i was reading the papers, came across this article who has the same heart disease as i do, but her age is only at a tender age of 13 and now she does is to wait for her death.
this is no joke, she was actually granted a heart transplant, but she rejected, she sees in no point that even after the operation she has to be on constant med and also yes she will still face death.
Quoted" i had enough operations in my life"
how sad this can be, i went through what she went thru, death i brushed past b4, and end up i will still need a op to survive, seriously i do ask myself what is the pt??
since one day i will still have to face death, nth is impossible. this i knw, bt heart problem is never a cure. NEVER. Even though u have a heart transplant, it doesnt mean u will be 100% cure.
Friends ard me is alway saying that u can make it, u will never die, and say yes we are not in ur shoes.. we will never understand the pain that u went thru.. frankly speaking, i dun need any sympathy, nor saying that u'll be fine, nth is gg to happen to u. i listened to this 1001 times or even more.
but once joseph said, have u ever thought what if one day u will just pass out and died, cuz of a sudden heart attack?? i replied, hmm, maybe i will be ur guardian angel. if that is i have enough karma to be one. ^^
reading her article, make me sees a different point of life, i might be waiting for death to arrive, but as long as i am still seeing the sun rise above the nxt day i will still make full use of my day. despite i am waiting for death to arrive.since i have already decided that i am not gg to have the nxt transplant.
cuz of this crap and bullshit, med that is constantly adding on to my never ending med life, i had enough of this shit. I JUST HAD ENOUGH!!!
Colourful rainbow <3
Monday, November 10, 2008 ' 11:34 PM
in 14days time, i am done with my final round of exams, and HOLS AFTER THAT... ^^
omg u will never understand how much i longed for this upcoming hols.... ^^
in 17days time., i will be able to see kyu.. and also hae and siwon... ^^
4mths ago, i was in thai to see their supershow, and now i am back to thai to watch sm con. ^^
seriously is sj perf that keeps me motivating, the one i keep looking fwd to...
was watching, kyuhyuk sang i love u oh thank u, by taewoo ft mc mong... i have to say i miss my kyu alotttttttttttttt...............
back to mugging. i am just so tired and i want to cry it out...
shall keep on repeat mode, i love u oh thank u..
ps: thanks god-daddy kelvin, i gt a camera for me and andrew.. ^^ we love it alot...
pss: my bday is just nxt mth, god-ma, bros, mum, god-dad, daddy and my whole extended family has been asking me what i wan,... i need to sit dwn and think...
1]DS Lite2 , the latest ver of it, it's only available in jp right now.
2] a NEW Wallet, Gucci, Burberry.
3] New Head Porter checkered backpack
4]NEW Head Porter Checkered sling Bag
4]LOTSA OF CASH..
5] Endless of SHOES, sneakers to be preferred.
best of all. i wan Kyu Hyun.. LOL...
my fren once said, why not as them to open an open chq, so that u can fill in any amt u wan, i believed if i tell my dad and my god-dad they will do that,, bt i am sorry i dun need that much cash to fulfilled my needs... ^^
bedtime.
imisskyualot
Colourful rainbow <3
Sunday, November 09, 2008 ' 1:01 AM
ok i am really tired...
exams is round the corner... >.<
19days to thai to see my ever precious baby kyu ^^
tmr i shall post my fanacc of ukiss...
overall thanks for the good time..
and kim kibum is a bamboo stick... =.= kim hyung joon don't u feed ur bro with food... =.=
jen said that hyung joon is one irrestitable guy ... and yes i have to admit that..
mel thinks that i have been mia since dun knw when, well mel if u are reading this, meet up aft my exams and b4 i leave ok?? i really do miss the gossping that we had.. =.=
i miss my friends alot.. =.=
and this kpop fiesta, i made new friends again ... ^^
Colourful rainbow <3
Thursday, November 06, 2008 ' 12:36 PM
OK i am suffering frm the withdrawal syptoms of MY DARLIN BOY... KIM KIBUM frm UKISS...
ok seriously i havent seen a new popband to be that FRIENDLY... to be exact EXTREMELY FRIENDLY...
HE IS OFFICIALLY ON MY LIST OF MY BABY AND DARLIN... in the line with kyu, hae, siwon, micky, kame and hyung joon, KIBUM of U-KISS...
I wanted to type what has happen these 3days , but i need to replenish my energy 1st b4 my fan acc is out,...
Tricia, wendy, meila and me had a really a gd time... And qianhui too... 4th and 5th nov is really worth remembering....
THANK U BOYS FOR EVERYTHING, it will be a nice memory for us...
till then , pls rem to take gd care of yourselves and work hard...
ps: mr kim kibum pls eat more u are very skinnyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ,
pss: kevin is really a smiling angel, he keep smiling whenever we saw him..^^ tricia and wendy i knw u love HIM alot... LOL
and not to forget today is sj 3rd anniversary,
HAPPY BDAY SJ... FOREVER 13 <3333333
update more ltr in the night ^^
Colourful rainbow <3
Monday, November 03, 2008 ' 12:48 AM
i been looking for this song since i dun knw when,
and the lyrics of this song just make me cry despite is an r&b track.
J-Like Yesterday
trust the warmth inside
can you feel my love alive
like yesterday...today will pass as if nothing is wrong
please don`t tell me why
i turn around to you but i won't ask the reason you sent me away
i know it wasn't the easiest thing to say to me
i thought about how hard it was
but i can't hide my tears...
so baby trust the warmth inside can you feel my love alive
trust the warmth inside can you feel my love alive
like yesterday...today will pass as if nothing is wrong
please don`t tell me why i turn around to you
but i won't ask the reason you sent me away
i wasn't good enough for you...
so i always wondered when the end would come then i told myself..
i'd walk away from you smiling so you wouldn't feel bad for me...and so i wouldn't regret it
so that this could all be a sweet memory
so baby faith is all we need
it was love that set us free like the first...
the end comes without a word
but love forever lives i won't be able to see you again...
but you'll live forever in my heart
if you ever miss me like the first time...
you can come back to me
don`t you know I love you
trust the warmth inside
can you feel my love alive like yesterday...
today will pass as if nothing is wrong
please don`t tell me why i turn around to you
i won't ask the reason you sent me away
it just reminds me of HIM, someone who i treasure so much with my life,
yet i have already lost him, i dun knw what went wrong along the way,
i shld have move on with my life but i guess my time has stopped since he's not involved in my life.
i may LOOK HAPPY but actually i am NOT ,
is just that i am covering my real self.
i need to find the once happy cheerful joey back,
i need to get back to my life once he wasnt existing at all,
maybe that will be the time i am once the girl i used to knw.
when will it be?? i wonder sometimes.
Colourful rainbow <3